This probably sounds like a cliche, but I’ve always wanted to be on Broadway. Most producers would take one look at me, and say “Yeah, you and every other vocal major fresh out of college.” And I get it; I had to earn my seat at the table. I had no problem with that, but it was hard for me to even pull out the chair at first.

In high school, I starred in a few minor productions. And by “starred”, I mean I had roles like Villager #4 and Tree Behind Rock. Of all these minor productions, my favorite was Wicked. I loved not just the soundtrack (which I got to sang when the first actor for the Tin Man got sick, thank you very much!) but also the characters and how deeply it all drew me into the story.

During my senior year of high school, I asked the Theater teacher Mr. Ragan to write me a letter of recommendation for the Juliard School. I could tell he thought I was setting my sights too high, but he agreed to write it nonetheless. Well, needless to say, a high school Senior who “dabbled” in a few productions here and there does not simply “get into” Juliard.

At first, I thought my life was over. I’d never get into a good school, never have a decent career or agent looking my way. It took a few months for me to realize that said rejection letter was actually a good thing. I’d never trade the friends I met at my new school for anything.

That summer, two universities sent me acceptance letters. Ironically enough, I’d never really heavily considered either, but these two “safety schools” were fast becoming my only realistic options. Both NYU’s music program and Northwestern University had accepted me into their programs. Now the only thing left was choosing one.

For the past few months, I’d had a job selling cars at a local dealership. I was about to quit to go to school full-time, but the money was pretty decent, and going to school would be expensive. I decided to make a list of the most important factors in a school and/or its music program, and the list went something like this:

  1. Social Atmosphere
  2. Academics
  3. Financial Aid/Scholarships
  4. Music Program’s ratings
  5. Distance from current job?

I put a question mark next to the last one because that depended on whether or not I worked as well as going to school full-time. I checked into Northwestern first, because I’d heard good things about their financial aid and the quality of their music school.

A few friends I knew talked about Northwestern positively when I asked, so I decided to bump it up a little higher on my list. I would already know several students there, even though some were graduating, and they spoke very highly of the Vocal program at Northwestern. I decided this school might be worth a shot.

Well, four years later, I graduated from Northwestern. It was a crazy ride, but the earlier positive reviews I’d gotten were spot-on; I really felt like I was in top-notch vocal shape after my commencement ceremony. Now to find an actual job!

That part was a little more challenging. I worked a string of odd jobs both at and near Northwestern with the (perhaps naive) goal of staying in touch with my college friends while saving up and trying to figure out my plans.

I also thought being plugged into all the connections and information I’d gotten from contacts in the program would increase my chances of getting a gig in the theater. I was partially right; in September 2014, I was enlisted as a part-time stagehand for the PrivateBank Theatre. It wasn’t great pay, but I was happy and more or less financially stable for the first time in a while.

What happened the next few months was sort of a whirlwind. In a very short amount of time, several huge life changes hit me: I got a new apartment just on the outskirts of NorthWestern; a few close friends of mine shipped out to California or New York in the hopes of making it big as recording artists; and I lost my job at the used car lot due to “downsizing.”

All of this didn’t affect me as much as I thought it would, mostly because I had enough saved from working at the Theatre and was planning to quit my soul-sucking sales job anyway.

But moving away from Northwestern felt like the death of an era; my friends had all run away to one coast or the other, and I was quite literally left somewhere in the middle.  I had visions that my friends were now huge stars rolling in corvettes and ray-bans, while I was wasting time working towards a goal that might never be achieved.

In Spring 2015, an actor at my theatre fell sick. I was asked to be a temporary replacement, but the actor then wrote a letter of grievances and announced that they weren’t coming back anytime soon (to put it politely).  I stayed on as a permanent actor until early 2016, when a talent scout noticed me and hired me for a Broadway production! I was so excited, I could barely contain myself during the business meeting.

My show only ran a few short weeks before the writer announced he was backing out because marketing the play was costing more than it earned. The producer quit not long after for similar reasons, and morale remained in the dirt for a couple months thereafter.

Even though I was slowly going broke, I was happy I’d gotten to be on Broadway for a short time. I tried to collect my nerves, and get ready for the next opportunity to come along.

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